Today was an unexpected day off. Medicaid approved 24 more visits for PT but we haven’t been approved for additional visits for Speech or OT…yet! I’m not sure if the requests were sent in late or if “they” are deliberating to see if Corey “needs” additional services. I can’t imagine that she wouldn’t be approved for additional visits given the Functional progress she’s made in all areas but we all know thinking logically and dealing with insurance should never share the same sentence.
Having the day off was actually a blessing for all of us. Corey pushes her self every day. The 2 hour daily commute, the (2) one hour sessions, (due to short term memory loss) interacting with “strangers” and physically being in a facility that is “new” to her each time she enters can be exhausting.
She is not sleeping through the night which is also a challenge to push through her day. I have moved into her room 5 nights a week which is a challenge for me to make it through our daily routine as well.
Corey fell back to sleep at 8am and slept until almost 11! She had Brunch in Bed and after a few episodes of America’s Next Top Model, she took a nap.
I allowed myself to take off the boxing gloves and not make 15 phone calls trying to resolve the approval issues. Sometimes fighting against what already is just slows you down. Sometimes it’s more important to take a day to let it go, stay in the moment and release the stress. What would the fight accomplish today but add to our fatigue.
Some day’s you have to use what you have; as flawed and imperfect as it is, and focus on doing the best you can with what you’ve got. What can we do today without services?
Everything we do is therapy; dressing, eating, walking to the chair lift, cooking dinner, researching recipes, singing, listening to jazz, folding/sorting laundry, emptying the dishwasher, writing thank you notes, typing on the computer and even playing with the cats and our dog.
Corey, if we wait for approvals rather than live in the moment, we will miss the opportunity to take advantage of what we do have. Persistence is the key, regardless of whether we have a support team or not. Each day we have to start from where we are with what we have in front of us. Sometimes that means we’re on our own, but we know what we have to do to get the job done. As long as we do the best we can there will never be a limit to what we can accomplish…we don’t need an approval for that!
Happy dreams, xoxo