Nobody trips over mountains. It is the small pebble that causes you to stumble. Pass all the pebbles in your path and you will find you have crossed the mountain – Author Unknown
A rock pile ceases to be a rock pile the moment a single man contemplates it, bearing within him the image of a cathedral – Antoine de Saint-Exupery, Flight of Arras 1942
I’m pretty sure we’re climbing the mountain looking for the cathedral at the top that hasn’t been built yet!
Tough week and TOUGH DAY and it’s only wednesday…are we over the hump yet?
Corey’s physical strides are far more advanced then her emotional, behavioral and cognitive healing. Please pray they continue to heal…at a faster pace! (The speed of recovery will help my sanity)
When Corey is in the moment, she is very present. She can participate in the conversation, add insightful comments, laugh at the appropriate moments and contribute to the topic. Within minutes of stating her thought and/or the conversation changing direction, she’s lost and forgotten we were discussing any topic at all.
We are trying to work with a new day nurse. This is an extremely difficult process with Corey’s stranger anxiety and short term memory loss. Corey will engage in conversation, pause to write or look away and when she reconnects eye contact with the “new person”, her memory loss sets off an anxiety tantrum. She is like Dori from Finding Nemo but has the temper of Linda Blair from the Exorcist! Poor Leah was forgotten at least 30 times today and we both had to work to talk Corey ‘off the ledge’ with each ‘reintroduction’.
We are on a path of 10 million pebbles. Every day we’re stumbling uphill. I can ‘visualize’ the top but I’m exhausted by the climb. There’s no road map, no signs giving us a clue to the remaining distance to the top and it feels like we’re not wearing any shoes!
As a single footstep will not make a path on the earth, so a single thought will not make a pathway in the mind. To make a deep physical path, we walk again and again. To make a deep mental path, we must think over and over the kind of thoughts we wish to dominate our lives – Henry David Thoreau
Tomorrow we will take more steps repeating the mantra, Never give up – Never give in; We can do this; Matter of Time…keep climbing, xoxo
(Maybe that cathedral on the mountain top is really the ultimate shoe store?)